I'm sure every person has that one ex-lover, that one person that always; no matter what, holds a special part of their heart. That one person that even if you haven't seen them for months, could change your world with a few simple words. That one person you would've sworn you'd lie down on train tracks for, or ran across the country, or taken a bullet for. Maybe it's young wanderlust that creates these dramatic feelings of attachment, maybe it's just a girl thing, maybe I haven't figured out exactly why. Even though I move forward with my life, he always lingers in the back of my mind. I wish this wasn't the case, how many times have I been told to "just move on" or simply forget.
How do you go about forgetting love? How did you know it was love in the first place? I mean no harm, I want only good things for him, and even though I know he's so bad for me, my heart still wants him. Or the feelings he gave me, I'm sure there's some other man out there who can evoke the same reactions from me. Either way it's a horrible inner turmoil to carry around, and no matter how hard I try he always seems to be right at the surface, playing with my emotions.
